people and pain

Credit :fb

    It has been days since I wrote my last entry.Well,I was quite busy,school would start soon,yeah,huhuhu.So,when I was scrolling the facebook,I saw that ☝ picture,and I was touched.I always got uncomfortable with oversensitive people who get upset or sad for a very small matter.And it happened that I realized that I am oversensitive too(it always happens that things I hate are what I have/am too)when I told my friend about something that made me very sad and down she said;
                                                     
                                                              "Itu ja pun"
 
    When I saw that pic☝,it made me think that 'sensitiveness' is a trait that exists naturally in people with different scale.People who are too sensitive would cry even for some things that others do or say that not even confirmed being directed to them.And it's quite good too because those people are alert with others change of mood so they would act rightfully when around that moody people.
    Talking about being sad about some things,yes it is right that it does not matter how sensitive you are,when it hurts you,it hurts you.People view saddening things differently,some things that are not hurting others would be hurtful to them based on what had happened in their personal life.It could be too depressing when they have to hear that one thing that are really really umh to them.For example,people who rarely or never being insulted or people never talk harshly to them would get hurt when someone did that to them,even when that certain someone doesn't really mean it.While others would just be okay with that.
      I don't know if that too sensitive attitude which leads to overthinking could be changed because some mature people still have that attitude,maybe it's a gift actually.However,it causes people around them especially their closest friends and family members have to be careful with their actions and words.And it's quite hard when we don't even know that they are this oversensitive species.
      Idk,that picture☝ kinda want to say that oversensitive doesn't exist because what hurts you,hurts you,but people who are too sensitive does exist right?😅
 

Sekian, bicara banyak isinya kurang.

From Wana with Love 💕

forgive and forget??

    Ok.This going to be hard,I know people won't really accept this kind of thought.I rarely speak based on experiences,mostly based on theories from my reading.Why? Because,saya tak banyak hal dengan orang.However,now I want to write from what I've been through,what I feel.I know this is not easy,but just try,this time,use your mata hati.People who knows me would say,
"how can you give us this kind of advise?you don't know what we have been through!"
Siapa kata.
I know how it feels when your bestfriend throw you away like a RUBBISH when she got new friends.
I know how it feels when you know your bestfriend said a lot of bad things about you right at your back.
I know how it feels when your favourite person,that you admire,you respect,did something to you that made you feel bodoh and embarrassed for fully time admiring that person.

Kan,kejam kan manusia.
Kejam betul manusia buat kita rasa macam rubbish.
Kejam betul manusia buat kita yang sayang diorang macam orang bodoh.
Kejam betul manusia buat jahat kat kita.
Kejam betul manusia,manusia itu kejam.

Tapi,nama lagi manusia kan?
After all,we are all just human being.
 
    When we forgive someone,yes we could not forget it.Sebab otak kita sihat,belum ada amnesia,apa lagi jenis yang kuat ingatan.Sorry,joke.Yes,when it leaves such a great pain,sadness,anger,lost and many more,it really hard to forget.We will always see that person as someone who hurts us,despisable.So,if we still have that kind of feeling,have we really 'forgive'?The problem in hard to forget comes when there's some thing wrong in the "I forgive" itself.And why should us forgive?
   Simple,to make us happy,and for them too.Siapa kita nak susahkan kematian orang lain,nyawa tersekat kat kerongkong time sakaratul maut sebab ada orang masih menuntut maaf dari diorang?Kenapa kita nak seksa jiwa kita sepanjang hidup fikir pasal luka di masa lalu?Sedangkan kita tahu,orang memang akan buat salah kat kita,tak semua orang baik.Tapi orang yang tak baik tulah lagi kesian dari kita,dorang tak tahu dorang buat salah,Allah tak suka,dapat dosa.Kesian kan?Sabarlah,ingat kalau betul dorang jahat,Allah bayar cash kat akhirat.Tapi kalau diorang tu Muslim,dan kita sayang saudara seagama kita,cuba kita kurangkan risiko diorang untuk masuk neraka
atau susah payah nak cari kita kat Mahsyar nanti masa matahari sejengkal dari kepala.Sebab itulah matlamat tertinggi seorang Muslim, tak nak susah di Mahsyar,tak nak neraka.
What if they made us lost something?
     Ingatlah,semua datang dari Allah.Dan diorang juga ujian dari Allah.Memang susah nak latih hati untuk redha,tapi kerana Tuhanmu,maka bersabarlah.
     Then,when we get to forgive,we will still remember those painful memories.We will remeber,but we should not live in it.That one motivator said that people failed to be happy because they keep living in the past.We should not let that memories make us sad,upset and depressed all the time.Move on,and move in lah.Memang sedih tapi benda dah jadi kan.Life goes on.People change,and everything changes,but stays.Why not just take lessons from what had happened,keep it in your heart ,keep it as a guide for the future.Stop hating.
   I remember Rasulullah S.A.W used to say that this one sahabat(I don't remember who) will be in Jannah even his amal was just like other people,nothing really special.It just that he never hate people.Why can't us be like him?
     Yes,it's hard to forgive and forget,and this post sounds childish,lol.Just imagine what if people we hurted did not able to forgive and forget our wrong doing on them?Very stressful right?
So,let's.
Sekian,bicara banyak isinya kurang.

From Wana with Love 💕

When I supposed to enjoy,but I didn't

Bahagiamu deritaku (candid tau ni) 

 Shortly after the  PMT ended up,my new kenalan both from Sabah and Sarawak created a group for all of the members,including me.In the early scroll,I saw this:

Person: siapa kawan kamu yang paling susah senyum(I don't know the point of asking this actually)

Gojes 1:Iwana

Gojes 2:Iwana

Yes,it's me.Loud and clear.I'm not offended actually,it's true after all,I smile sangat sikit all through the programme.Even it supposed to be fun,since majority of the time we were visiting tempat-tempat best,I didn' really excited.During my vacation to Langkawi with my besties and our wonderful teachers 2 months ago,I was happy like monkey got banana.Nisbah saya senyum masa program dan Langkawi ialah 1:15.

Ya, aku tak salahkan PMT,it was outsanding,marvellous.Cuma setting saya tak betul.Berikut merupakan alasan napa saya tak ceria masa tu:

#1.I was the only participant from our school,which was the only sekolah agama student,I cannot really mend in with them.Cara kita berbeda.

#2.I was emotionally unstable during that period,my classmates would know why,and my roomates too,thank you for being with me roomates,they knew my problem.I thought this vacation could distract me,but not pula.

#3.Masa dia agak padat,aku pulak jenis lambat macam slug,soo,stress sikit.

#4.I had visitted some of the places(only two actually),but Ice City was great,I did enjoy there.

Kesimpulannya,it's not ur faults friends,it was only me,with my broken heart.Sorry abang2 kakak2 fasi kalau saya tak supportive,timing salah gima.Btw,the program was great,haza mumtaz minkum.I was impressed,I had learnt a lot there.Thank you.For Miza and Diana,thank you banyok for being with this baby tua hihi.

Amazing view from our room.

From Wana with Love 💕